About accepting love

Let me share some things that happened last week. I have been blessed beyond measure as God has showed me again that He is interested in our lives to the smallest detail.

In the beginning of the week I shared with my husband my fear that I might get so caught up with all the daily routine that I will drop the card-making (and other crafts) I so greatly enjoy. I have been so happy lately that I have had time to do some things with  my hands and I was afraid that I'd loose that again. I was hoping to be able to get some craft tools and stamps to keep up the desire to make something - but realized soon that there is no way I could buy anything at present time.

It was Wednesday evening, I think, that I got an amazing e-mail. I have promised not to share details, but I hope the person does not mind me telling this much... Someone I do not know at all had gotten it to their heart that they wanted to send me some paper crafting material if I was willing to receive it. Sure I was willing! I was stunned. God had given it to a someone's heart to send me things and they wanted nothing in return. Two packages arrived last Monday and they were filled with the exact thing I had been hoping to have... Amazing. God cares about my desire to do paper crafts! I just pray this person will get manyfold blessings from our Heavenly Father in return.

As if that alone had not been enough, something more took place. I thought this kind of things happen only in movies. :) On Thursday evening I got a phone call from a friend who asked if we, my husband and I, were willing to leave on a weekend trip next morning, all expences covered. They told me they had organized someone to take care of our animals and we would not be told where we were bound before we got there. I asked who was coming to take care of the animals and heard it was my father-in-law. After that we were glad to say, "Sure, we'll go!"  We were to pack clothes for being outside, staying inside, for shopping or such, and later at nigt got an SMS saying we should pack our bathing suits as well.

Next morning we were picked up by two friends and the journey began. It was some exciting hours for us -and we ended up in Turku where we were taken to the Holiday Club spa Caribia. Just before we got there, we received an envelope and inside there was a fairly large sum of money. "Stunned" does no justice to the feeling we had. :) We had a room in the hotel reserved for us and our friends told they'd pick us up on Sunday at noon.

We had a great weekend of realaxing. We spent money on pampering ourselves, had some great meals, swam hours in the multiple pools etc. We loved every moment and felt more than blessed. We could not believe that this kind of thing was happening to us!

This goes beyond understanding just as it is. Even more so it was because in less than two weeks ago, Roope and I had been talking that we would LOVE to be able to go and spend even one night in a spa like that. But counted that in present time there is no way we could afford it. Later we heard another thing that proved again how God takes care of the details. My father-in-law had not accepted an invitation to visit a church he every now and then ministers to... and did not know why he denied it. He understood later - he was not going there because his ministry this weekend was for us. Makes one feel humble...

One would think this is more than plenty of blessing for one person/couple. But when God pampers, He does mighty good job in doing so. We got home on Sunday evening. My friend gave me a bunch of flowers and said, "Sorry and thank you." SORRY??? SORRY FOR WHAT?? For giving us so much? She didn't tell, just smiled...

When we opened the door, we realized that someone has been doing a whole lot of cleaning in our house.  Had my mother-in-law been there as well? Had my father-in-law been cleaning all weekend? We could not figure it out, so we made a phone call. We were told to take a look into our fridge and freezer and storage cupboards - all were packed with all kinds of food! Some ladies from the church had been in the house on Friday and they had been cleaning and bringing all that stuff.

We spent that night feeling blessed. And I understood the "sorry" as well... because it WAS humiliating thinking that someone had been in the house and seen it as it was... And it was humiliating thinking that people had seen our need of help... Humiliating to think how much people had given for us and we could not give nothing in return.

Accepting help is not the easiest task to learn!

We spoke about it a lot. About how difficult it is when we do not know who all have been part of making this weekend this special. There is a deeply rooted need in a human being that we'd like to survive on our own or at least to "pay back". Just accepting grace is the hardest part. It is so in relation to the salvation that comes from God by grace through Jesus. It is so in relation to accepting help and support from people. It is so when we just receive blessings that are more than "reasonable".

It would be so nice (to our human pride) to have the blessings in a way that we did not have to depend on anyone. :D But that is not how the body of Christ works... We ask for help from God - and our need is exposed to His people.

In the end, we just have to allow God to love us and use people to do so.


...and even if we cannot pay back to the same people who gave US the blessing, there is no rule that tells we couldn't make the blessing go round to some other direction!